OKay..

Okay. I think im addicted because every time i have something to say or something happens this is where I want to put it.. I guess the novelty will wear off eventually... I hope...
I should be starting a essay, ive done the notes for it but just cant do it... its on two body systems that deteriorate with the natural aging process, ive chosen urinary system and musculoskeletal... did you know our bones start to deteriorate from about the age of 30.... so drink that milk...
Im thinking of going to lunch or brunch with rach tomorrow, waiting for her reply... dont have the twins and it would be nice to eat a meal without them.. although its great to give them food now and watch them attempt to eat it, or screw their faces up if they dont like it. I love my kids sooo much but its not all about them... Im EMma... 27... soon 28 and have lots of stuff to say and do.... thats how i feel sometimes that motherhood took away abit of me.. i love being a mum, its rewarding in so many different ways but i still want to be emma. You seen twins... twins... it sounds hard and i guess sometimes it is hard but if ben wasnt working away it would be alot easier. Its double everything.... if you have just one baby, double it for just a second, double the poop double the screams double the work double the MONEY>but also double the laughter and cuddles. We get stopped all the fuckin time in shops, get asked are they twins, are they boy girl when one is wearing pink one blue, ask if we had ivf or not ( i think thats a bit personal) we get stopped and told god loves us and knew we would cope... we also get the sympathy looks the fuck that looks and the looks of omg..... as if its not hard enough... when i have to go out i have to pack double the bottles double nappies 2 bags and then getting them in and out the car, when they were small i mastered getting them both out the car at the same time but now they are a whopping 8kgs i cant so one is always waiting,,,,, thats the bit i hate. one always has to wait. i am very particular though, if you show one affection or attention the other gets it too. doing twin feeds was hard, the last 8months have gone by in a blur. and I always wonder who out of all the friends i have ever wondered if i was coping...
we're having a garage sale in afew weeks, ive never done one before, we have so much crap esp in the garage so its time to clear it out, we;ve updated alot of our stuff and the old is still cloggin up the house... maybe thats my space issue.... with what we make im going to get pissed hahahahaha..... na we'll need it if we move on from here... we've been trying to sell my beloved VE now, i didnt want to but we dont need it and we want to upgrade to a pathfinder... no tarago for us...... yet!
well im spent.. im hot.. and i dont think ill do my essay tonight.
hope your all well and stuff.
nitey nite.
xxx