God.. its been almost a month since I last "blogged"... and so much has happend!!
We flew over to Groote for a sneak peak and fell in love with the place. Population 1500 scenery breath taking and ppl just so nice ( a much different persona than beat the jone's roxby) about a week later Ben was offered a job and we should be over there before the 5th January... at first I was kind of bummed I had to wait but Jan is perfect as his contract runs out for his company now so we wont owe relocation money to them and our lease runs out so we wont have to worry about all the house stuff.. Ive been through our house like a cyclone throwing stuff out, giving stuff away and packing stuff to take to SA with us ( in 4 wks we head home yeehaa) because they will only pay for one container so anything else we pay for and well i dont want to take anything we dont need!! could cost us a fortune!! But we are all mega excited and cant wait to get over there and start living the dream... a tropical island... yeah. Its going to be awesome. And hot and muggy to boot!! Just a tad concerned that each house has a cyclone shelter attached to it with a stairs going down from the main bedroom! I heard they get 4 warnings a year!
So yeah, 4 wks til our big trip home. We leave on the 10th Nov and are driving ( i hear some oh my god are you kidding!!) but we know theres going to be some tedious moments but we have to tow a trailer back full of stuff we dont need here and we need the car to scoot around sa in when we home ( we are planning a trip to roxby one weekend so look out!!!) it should be good, the kids have been pretty good with the little day trips we do. On the way home we are stopping in Brizzy to see some of bens family and do theme parks again.
Its starting to muggy up here, hot muggy humid and all that gross stuff. so you dont feel like youve showered properly and dried off. Im hoping we are more used to it this time around.
Twins are amazing, crawling everywhere, climbing everything babbling sooo much and fighting! yep they fight over toys already.. what ever one has the other wants even if they have the same thing! its cute but i know its going to get worse and i need to start now to make sure it doesnt get into full blown fights later down the track. They still sleeping great and rori has her 6th tooth coming through and brods has his 2nd coming through. They are 1 in 2 1.2 wks. its so exciting, mostly coz its a sign they are getting older and it will get easier.. it already is coz they are starting to amuse themselves now and climb and chuck things into the toilets....
mj and cj are the same, amazing kids and amazing helpers. i really am lucky to have such good kids with big hearts. they care so much and im so proud of them. they are excited about the move although callum was a little disheartened because he is worried he wont get a bday party again ( he missed out this year coz we moved here but he'll have one a week after school starts)
well i best get to it, brodie is harrassing me for attention so best i get to it!
lots of love
x
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Friday, September 12, 2008
Where in the ??
Okay... I have a very good excuse for not "blogging" the last 3 weeks Ive been so crook, the first two weeks I thought it was just a really severe head cold, finally dragged my sorry ass to the dr who kindly told me I had pneumonia. Off to get a chest xray and geeze that showed some big white areas where big balls of phlegm decieded to attach itself to my lungs... not nice and Im telling you right now it was fuckin painful. Last wed ben took me to er because i couldnt drag my ass of the bathroom floor because it just hurt to much to breath. We got sent home from er.... misdiagnosed.. not happy! Anyhow, a week on the good drugs and Im almost back to my normal self, still get the flushes of hot sweats and my mojo hasnt quite returned but Its not far of I know, its in the dying stages... what a head fuck. What low immunity gets you I guess. My birthday on Monday and I just cant wait. Coz bens bday is 3wks away we've decieded to go halves in a barrier reef snorkelling day cruise. They are pricey but Ive heard worth every penny. We werent going to take mj and cj but I just dont think I could do it without them. They would just love it so they are coming aswell. Plus we're going to thailand next year and we arent taking them there so I guess makes me feel a little better.
We head to groote tues afternoon for 2 nights to check the place out, we're staying at the resort that is there and its soo nice, im going to take so many pics, mostly to show the kids so they have a idea of what the place looks like. Im still pinning everything on Ben getting it and its looking so good right now.
Im a little stressed about rach looking after the kids, if she'll be okay. Im sure she will. Ill have everything ready for her. It will be the first major time away from the twins since they were in hospital. Im a litte nervous.
Apart from all that everything is about normal here, same old same old. Ben weight loss is 1kg of 30. Im so proud of him. Im officialy over 10! I went and got afew tops the other day and a 12 is almost to big! Im so surprised Im sticking to the gym, its been afew weeks since ive been coz i been sick but i just cant wait to get back. I just love it so much.
I cant believe im going to be 28. I feel like at least 35. Maybe its having the twins. Its making me feel older than I am. Stress I guess.
They are doing so well, Brodie is climbing everything and anything and gets shitty is he cant get higher. He just wont be happy til he is walking. Rori is just a diva and has a smile that is so mishevious. She dances in her walker and is army crawling everywhere. Quite fast! They both still chase me when I vaccum which is just not cute anymore!!
Mj has locked herself in her room with her veronicas cd blaring..... I think she is playing bratz. Her imagination never fails to amaze me. She can play like that for hours.
Callum is outside doing who knows what, he still wears just his jox and is always making something.
They had their school disco last night and were so excited. Got all jazzed up and they had their $10 to buy glo sticks and drinks and food. I missed them though. They had a awesome time.
So anyhow i best get to it, ben needs a hand feeding a baby. I just cant wait til they can hold their own bottles.... they are one next month.... can you believe it??
xxxx
We head to groote tues afternoon for 2 nights to check the place out, we're staying at the resort that is there and its soo nice, im going to take so many pics, mostly to show the kids so they have a idea of what the place looks like. Im still pinning everything on Ben getting it and its looking so good right now.
Im a little stressed about rach looking after the kids, if she'll be okay. Im sure she will. Ill have everything ready for her. It will be the first major time away from the twins since they were in hospital. Im a litte nervous.
Apart from all that everything is about normal here, same old same old. Ben weight loss is 1kg of 30. Im so proud of him. Im officialy over 10! I went and got afew tops the other day and a 12 is almost to big! Im so surprised Im sticking to the gym, its been afew weeks since ive been coz i been sick but i just cant wait to get back. I just love it so much.
I cant believe im going to be 28. I feel like at least 35. Maybe its having the twins. Its making me feel older than I am. Stress I guess.
They are doing so well, Brodie is climbing everything and anything and gets shitty is he cant get higher. He just wont be happy til he is walking. Rori is just a diva and has a smile that is so mishevious. She dances in her walker and is army crawling everywhere. Quite fast! They both still chase me when I vaccum which is just not cute anymore!!
Mj has locked herself in her room with her veronicas cd blaring..... I think she is playing bratz. Her imagination never fails to amaze me. She can play like that for hours.
Callum is outside doing who knows what, he still wears just his jox and is always making something.
They had their school disco last night and were so excited. Got all jazzed up and they had their $10 to buy glo sticks and drinks and food. I missed them though. They had a awesome time.
So anyhow i best get to it, ben needs a hand feeding a baby. I just cant wait til they can hold their own bottles.... they are one next month.... can you believe it??
xxxx
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Oophs!
Okay so I know its been awhile since I last "blogged".. i apologise for that, with ben home the week goes to fast and we were quite busy those days of. I had my make over I think for the day I looked completly different, ben even commented but i think that was due to the 10pounds of makeup i was wearing. It was great to be pampered but it just wasnt me, i didnt like the makeup, clothes and being a "model" for a afternoon really was awkward. When I get the proofs and if i think its decent enough I'll email them to you and post on facebook....
we took the kids to river way, thats townsvilles best kept secret, its a park / arts center/ sports oval/swimming lagoons/ playground/ river place that is gorgeous. So lucious and green.. the kids had a ball swimming in the shallower lagoon thats below the bigger one seperated by a arty sculpture leading down, pretty nice i thought. wouldve been nice if we didnt forget the friggin nappy bag!! i think ive explained how hard / how much work is required when we do go out and to forget the nappy bag... FUCK ME... was the words I said when we changed Rori to go swimming and she did a big ass POO. So our beautiful afternoon was cut short. Kids werent to impressed so bribed them with some hungry jacks and went home!
Twins are now 10months! WooHOo 8wks to go and they are 1!!!! how exciting and I just cant wait.. 1 is when everything changes, they arent babies anymore and are more independant. I adore my kids, I love having twins, does have it moments I wont lie but I do enjoy the challenge even though at least once a week I want to walk out. Normal I guess.. Anyhow.. it would be nice when they can hold their own bottles.. Rori is just starting to but I think she likes it squirting out! Brods isnt ready at all... although he is crawling much better and is starting to get faster and not so frustrated. Rori is army shuffling crawling but still very slow, theyve both found the volume control on the dvd player and play with that all the time and pull out all the dvds.. time to introduce No and hand taps soon I think. start early they learn early no dramas when they are 2. Ive never really suffered terrible 2's. had moments like everyone else but I like to think i dicipline my kids well.
So bens been gone one day already and I hate it.. 6 sleeps to go... then its fathers day, we're buying him a whipper snipper.. thought thats a manly fatherly gift. then on monday we fly out to GROOTE....yep thats right... ben has made it through to a site visit so we get to visit this beautiful tropical island for 2 nights without the kids!! even if ben doesnt get the job im just going to love the short mini rejuventaion trip. Just me ben. Going to be great. and of course I still really want him to get the job. If it all goes well we think its just the medical pych and then contract. but we have heard of ppl going for a site visit and still not getting the job.. so we are still apprehensive until we get the final verdict. its something we both want so bad so we both kind of feel it wont happen because we want it so bad..
anyhow i have to go, callum is home from school with a form of UTI and twins are a little under the weather for something different and last night i went into a freezing cold shaking fit that hurt my whole body i spent til 12 shaking hot and cold. i lost 800grams!! so there goes mummy groupd today i think.. i just dont think we are healthy enough to visit anyone and FUCK is my word of the day because I like to get out and be social.
Better sort these kids out.. well mj. she needs to catch her bus in 8min and im still on here... such a bad mum!!!!
caio babes
xxx
we took the kids to river way, thats townsvilles best kept secret, its a park / arts center/ sports oval/swimming lagoons/ playground/ river place that is gorgeous. So lucious and green.. the kids had a ball swimming in the shallower lagoon thats below the bigger one seperated by a arty sculpture leading down, pretty nice i thought. wouldve been nice if we didnt forget the friggin nappy bag!! i think ive explained how hard / how much work is required when we do go out and to forget the nappy bag... FUCK ME... was the words I said when we changed Rori to go swimming and she did a big ass POO. So our beautiful afternoon was cut short. Kids werent to impressed so bribed them with some hungry jacks and went home!
Twins are now 10months! WooHOo 8wks to go and they are 1!!!! how exciting and I just cant wait.. 1 is when everything changes, they arent babies anymore and are more independant. I adore my kids, I love having twins, does have it moments I wont lie but I do enjoy the challenge even though at least once a week I want to walk out. Normal I guess.. Anyhow.. it would be nice when they can hold their own bottles.. Rori is just starting to but I think she likes it squirting out! Brods isnt ready at all... although he is crawling much better and is starting to get faster and not so frustrated. Rori is army shuffling crawling but still very slow, theyve both found the volume control on the dvd player and play with that all the time and pull out all the dvds.. time to introduce No and hand taps soon I think. start early they learn early no dramas when they are 2. Ive never really suffered terrible 2's. had moments like everyone else but I like to think i dicipline my kids well.
So bens been gone one day already and I hate it.. 6 sleeps to go... then its fathers day, we're buying him a whipper snipper.. thought thats a manly fatherly gift. then on monday we fly out to GROOTE....yep thats right... ben has made it through to a site visit so we get to visit this beautiful tropical island for 2 nights without the kids!! even if ben doesnt get the job im just going to love the short mini rejuventaion trip. Just me ben. Going to be great. and of course I still really want him to get the job. If it all goes well we think its just the medical pych and then contract. but we have heard of ppl going for a site visit and still not getting the job.. so we are still apprehensive until we get the final verdict. its something we both want so bad so we both kind of feel it wont happen because we want it so bad..
anyhow i have to go, callum is home from school with a form of UTI and twins are a little under the weather for something different and last night i went into a freezing cold shaking fit that hurt my whole body i spent til 12 shaking hot and cold. i lost 800grams!! so there goes mummy groupd today i think.. i just dont think we are healthy enough to visit anyone and FUCK is my word of the day because I like to get out and be social.
Better sort these kids out.. well mj. she needs to catch her bus in 8min and im still on here... such a bad mum!!!!
caio babes
xxx
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Ho Hum...
Yay.. now it's Sunday.. and tomorrow is Monday and I am child free!! I just love my child free days but they always go soooo fast.. Usually I study go to the shops, last time I caught up with rach for coffee and that was really really nice. Tomorrow I'll be getting Mj and Cj of to the bus by 8am and then dropping the twins at care then coming home to sleep til lunch!!! Then Im really excited I have my first consult for the make over I won.. I know I deserve it and I know Im gonna look hot!! Especially because I have lost more weight and looking more buff atm.. when you go to the gym the results dont happen for afew days after.. not sure why but thats the way it works and im happy with that I suppose.. and after a really good workout your muscles still burn calories for hours afterwards... just something i learnt along the way!!
Yesterday was such a great day, so relaxed and enjoyable.. i actually had a enjoyable weekend and i didnt need alcohol, mates or anything else to validate it. I think Im growing up! It was me the kids and music, movies a nice lunch and it was awesomly warm!!
Brodie has discovered crawling around the house now and the benefits that come from that, rori has just started to discover crawling and is moving around slowly... its funny to watch them collide then attack each other and then they laugh at each other.. yest rori was in her walker and brodie was playing on the floor with the toys and he passed her up a toy and she grabbed it and laughed and "talked" to him, it was the most awesome sight to see them interact like that. Ive waited since knowing i was having twins to see that..
brodie can now pull himself up, well the gumnut did it in the bath and was so proud of himself.
mj got another certificate at school i think that makes about 4 for the year and she skipped a grade aswell so she is really coming into her own and doing so well, her reading is amazing now and the books she brings home shock me now. im really proud of her.
cj is well cj... always into something, comes home with his hands covered in paint clothes covered in paint and sand in his pockets and shoes... he's coming along well but has more interest in building, designing and reporting things as opposed to reading and writing. maybe he'll be the best quarry manager in austraila one day.. like my dad.
so much has happend to us in the last year its almost too much. Afew great things have happend out of it though and im very thankful. I have gotten in contact with a best mate from high school and im just rapt about that, its almost like we never missed a days company. ive regained some friendships but im just not sure, you know once bitten twice shy kinda thing. do people really change and can they be truely sorry? i guess so but sometimes its hard to believe and i tend now to sit and watch and i just love karma. it always has a way.. and i really dont mind being the one to sit back laugh and think well. there you go. i am though alot stronger.
i really want something yummy to eat today. just dont know what. something mind blowingly yummy. but what.. ive settled for vegemite toast for the minute. not mind blowing but yummy. maybe tomorrow when i have no kids ill have something that yummy.. theres a great souvlaki bar down the strand...
welp i best get to it. i have a load of washing to hang up, then one more and im all done for a day! haha..... and a lil baby boy who needs his morning nap.. just got to find him.. he went crawling past about 5min ago....
caio
xxxx
Yesterday was such a great day, so relaxed and enjoyable.. i actually had a enjoyable weekend and i didnt need alcohol, mates or anything else to validate it. I think Im growing up! It was me the kids and music, movies a nice lunch and it was awesomly warm!!
Brodie has discovered crawling around the house now and the benefits that come from that, rori has just started to discover crawling and is moving around slowly... its funny to watch them collide then attack each other and then they laugh at each other.. yest rori was in her walker and brodie was playing on the floor with the toys and he passed her up a toy and she grabbed it and laughed and "talked" to him, it was the most awesome sight to see them interact like that. Ive waited since knowing i was having twins to see that..
brodie can now pull himself up, well the gumnut did it in the bath and was so proud of himself.
mj got another certificate at school i think that makes about 4 for the year and she skipped a grade aswell so she is really coming into her own and doing so well, her reading is amazing now and the books she brings home shock me now. im really proud of her.
cj is well cj... always into something, comes home with his hands covered in paint clothes covered in paint and sand in his pockets and shoes... he's coming along well but has more interest in building, designing and reporting things as opposed to reading and writing. maybe he'll be the best quarry manager in austraila one day.. like my dad.
so much has happend to us in the last year its almost too much. Afew great things have happend out of it though and im very thankful. I have gotten in contact with a best mate from high school and im just rapt about that, its almost like we never missed a days company. ive regained some friendships but im just not sure, you know once bitten twice shy kinda thing. do people really change and can they be truely sorry? i guess so but sometimes its hard to believe and i tend now to sit and watch and i just love karma. it always has a way.. and i really dont mind being the one to sit back laugh and think well. there you go. i am though alot stronger.
i really want something yummy to eat today. just dont know what. something mind blowingly yummy. but what.. ive settled for vegemite toast for the minute. not mind blowing but yummy. maybe tomorrow when i have no kids ill have something that yummy.. theres a great souvlaki bar down the strand...
welp i best get to it. i have a load of washing to hang up, then one more and im all done for a day! haha..... and a lil baby boy who needs his morning nap.. just got to find him.. he went crawling past about 5min ago....
caio
xxxx
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Friday...
Yay its friday already.. its going nice and quick.. i love the weekends, like ive said no routine and just cruizey...
So ive been busy and ive been really happy the last few days.. getting lots of sleep which is something you take for granted when either one you dont have kids or 2 your kids are grown up and youve forgotten what its like!! Brodie is starting to venture around the house, he has a blister forming on his knee... not really sure what to do about that... Rori fell of the couch and sent two teeth into her gum... blood and stuff. NIce! At least once a week one of them fall of something... :-/
Ive done my weigh in today and Im now at my lightest... Im Friggin stoked.. all thanks to the gym... I am such a gym junkie now.. I love that I can punch out 30 pushups straight up and can kick it in the weights with the other gym junkies... I still have loads of work to do, im getting upper body strength but its a work in progress.. im just loving the muscle definition Im getting though, Im seeing that 6 pack even if it is marred by stretch marks....... :(
Im going to start looking into triathlons, how cool is that?? Me doing that.. awesome i reckon.. plus i like to win.....
so i made a wicked ass chocolate cake... actually to much chocolate.. chocolate chips in the cake and the icing was made of chocolate chips... over load but oh so nice!!
Had my mums meeting at lollipops, its awesome there, its the biggest indoor cafe ive ever seen, its great, be nice when the twins can play more though. they are more facinated with all the other kids running around and screaming!!
AND... i finally finished my 100 module on Aged Care.. just took afew months!! The assessment consisted of about 15 small essays. Fully on and a bit of a head fuck but its done.. thank fuck..
I still surprise myself that I can still study and that I still enjoy it. Im glad Im actually doing something with my life so when the kids are older Ill have a good job doing something Ill just enjoy. Id hate to have a job I didnt like. Whats the point.
Anyhow I have some kids to control and some music to crank! YEP its friday and music is on with a vodka in hand.. just one for me tonight though..
much luff
xx
So ive been busy and ive been really happy the last few days.. getting lots of sleep which is something you take for granted when either one you dont have kids or 2 your kids are grown up and youve forgotten what its like!! Brodie is starting to venture around the house, he has a blister forming on his knee... not really sure what to do about that... Rori fell of the couch and sent two teeth into her gum... blood and stuff. NIce! At least once a week one of them fall of something... :-/
Ive done my weigh in today and Im now at my lightest... Im Friggin stoked.. all thanks to the gym... I am such a gym junkie now.. I love that I can punch out 30 pushups straight up and can kick it in the weights with the other gym junkies... I still have loads of work to do, im getting upper body strength but its a work in progress.. im just loving the muscle definition Im getting though, Im seeing that 6 pack even if it is marred by stretch marks....... :(
Im going to start looking into triathlons, how cool is that?? Me doing that.. awesome i reckon.. plus i like to win.....
so i made a wicked ass chocolate cake... actually to much chocolate.. chocolate chips in the cake and the icing was made of chocolate chips... over load but oh so nice!!
Had my mums meeting at lollipops, its awesome there, its the biggest indoor cafe ive ever seen, its great, be nice when the twins can play more though. they are more facinated with all the other kids running around and screaming!!
AND... i finally finished my 100 module on Aged Care.. just took afew months!! The assessment consisted of about 15 small essays. Fully on and a bit of a head fuck but its done.. thank fuck..
I still surprise myself that I can still study and that I still enjoy it. Im glad Im actually doing something with my life so when the kids are older Ill have a good job doing something Ill just enjoy. Id hate to have a job I didnt like. Whats the point.
Anyhow I have some kids to control and some music to crank! YEP its friday and music is on with a vodka in hand.. just one for me tonight though..
much luff
xx
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
down time..
So.. ben left today.. and you guessed it.. im sad. Walking around the house with the biggest frown, wanting to burst into tears sad... Its not a nice feeling to drop him of at the airport and then come home to a empty house that when he is home is full of fun, laughter and a very relaxed mum... I still try hard to give the kids those things when ben is away but its really hard when the one person you lean on for support just isnt around. So now Im counting down til he comes home next Wed lunch time... bring it on and fast I say..
I do have alot planned this week so hopefully that makes it go quicker, tomorrow if I could be bothered I have to do a grocery shop ( always fun with 4.. its not the shopping bit its bringing it inside!) Friday Im meeting some other mums at lollipops ( the awesome indoor play cafe here) and going to the gym... im hoping sunday i have the first consult for my make over then monday twins in care, tues is gym and wed ben is home.... so i hopefully it goes fast...
My remission didnt last long, im back on the steroids again, ive started to wonder if ill ever be able to get of meds again. Its not looking to good at all. This disease is really starting to shit me..... literally!!!!
Well my whinge here is done for now, Ive sorted all callums clothes out, he had so many and majority were way to small for him, brought in the clothes now i gotta start tea and all that fun stuff...
nite
xx
I do have alot planned this week so hopefully that makes it go quicker, tomorrow if I could be bothered I have to do a grocery shop ( always fun with 4.. its not the shopping bit its bringing it inside!) Friday Im meeting some other mums at lollipops ( the awesome indoor play cafe here) and going to the gym... im hoping sunday i have the first consult for my make over then monday twins in care, tues is gym and wed ben is home.... so i hopefully it goes fast...
My remission didnt last long, im back on the steroids again, ive started to wonder if ill ever be able to get of meds again. Its not looking to good at all. This disease is really starting to shit me..... literally!!!!
Well my whinge here is done for now, Ive sorted all callums clothes out, he had so many and majority were way to small for him, brought in the clothes now i gotta start tea and all that fun stuff...
nite
xx
Monday, August 11, 2008
One to go....
Geeze, how time flies.. it really does... too bad it doesnt when its bad.... but tomorrow Ben is of to work again, for 8 nights...... i hate it so much but it's abit more happier this time around as when he gets back he has his next interveiw for groote.. please keep your fingers crossed for us!!
So what have we done this week??? Got on the piss alot of it actually. I needed to unwind and relax so for the first 4 nights ben was home, i got tipsy drunk! and it was great.. no hangover but still relaxed enough to have a good giggle! We havent done alot and its been awesome, just spent time together as a family. Went to the gym a whole lot ( for something different) now I prefer it when Ben is there......
We took the twins to a park with birds and got bombarded by them because I fed them bread and it cracked the twins up, that was a great moment, something made them laugh that much and it wasnt us! they are really turning into little people now. thank god.
I won something... OMG i won something!! I won a makeover in the townsville eye, its a magazine that comes out in Wednesdays paper, everyone reads it!! And im going to be in it as the August make over and I dont care what anyone says I fricken deserve it!!! I get my hair, make up done whole new style aswell!! ( im kinda hoping short) and I get a shopping spree for 3 outfits... casual, after 5 and formal and a photo shoot.... how awesome is that??? I just cant wait. Im waiting to hear when I can do the 2hour assesement first... have to be when ben is home..
So finally life is starting to look up for us, Im really starting to enjoy what I have here ( minus the up all night crap by myself) a loving family, great kids who are just amazing, 2 gorgeous babies and a husband who does absolutly everything for me when he is home so I can take it easy before he goes back.... and he is looking for jobs everywhere so we can live together again... i am realizing that I have a pretty darn good life. Even though sometimes it doesnt seem like that because ben works away... but not for long!!
Ben reminded me that next year we go to thailand with lisa and adam,be like a second honey moon for us.... we arent taking the kids!! we have a wedding in adel in nov we are really looking forward to and a wedding in melb early next year we are really looking forward to aswell.
Im on a high today and not quite sure what to do with myself.... ( okay im going to the gym!!!) im bummed ben goes tomorrow dont get me wrong but im happier knowing its only a matter of months and we could be outta this hole and on a tropical island.....
Well i best get to it, i have so many phone calls to make this morning.... dentist, specialist ( ive relapsed with my disease again... I think I jinxed myself but the steroids give me that energy i really need) wch in adel for callums kidneys and i have a girls night out next week in town i have to rsvp for...
take care
much luff
em
xxx
So what have we done this week??? Got on the piss alot of it actually. I needed to unwind and relax so for the first 4 nights ben was home, i got tipsy drunk! and it was great.. no hangover but still relaxed enough to have a good giggle! We havent done alot and its been awesome, just spent time together as a family. Went to the gym a whole lot ( for something different) now I prefer it when Ben is there......
We took the twins to a park with birds and got bombarded by them because I fed them bread and it cracked the twins up, that was a great moment, something made them laugh that much and it wasnt us! they are really turning into little people now. thank god.
I won something... OMG i won something!! I won a makeover in the townsville eye, its a magazine that comes out in Wednesdays paper, everyone reads it!! And im going to be in it as the August make over and I dont care what anyone says I fricken deserve it!!! I get my hair, make up done whole new style aswell!! ( im kinda hoping short) and I get a shopping spree for 3 outfits... casual, after 5 and formal and a photo shoot.... how awesome is that??? I just cant wait. Im waiting to hear when I can do the 2hour assesement first... have to be when ben is home..
So finally life is starting to look up for us, Im really starting to enjoy what I have here ( minus the up all night crap by myself) a loving family, great kids who are just amazing, 2 gorgeous babies and a husband who does absolutly everything for me when he is home so I can take it easy before he goes back.... and he is looking for jobs everywhere so we can live together again... i am realizing that I have a pretty darn good life. Even though sometimes it doesnt seem like that because ben works away... but not for long!!
Ben reminded me that next year we go to thailand with lisa and adam,be like a second honey moon for us.... we arent taking the kids!! we have a wedding in adel in nov we are really looking forward to and a wedding in melb early next year we are really looking forward to aswell.
Im on a high today and not quite sure what to do with myself.... ( okay im going to the gym!!!) im bummed ben goes tomorrow dont get me wrong but im happier knowing its only a matter of months and we could be outta this hole and on a tropical island.....
Well i best get to it, i have so many phone calls to make this morning.... dentist, specialist ( ive relapsed with my disease again... I think I jinxed myself but the steroids give me that energy i really need) wch in adel for callums kidneys and i have a girls night out next week in town i have to rsvp for...
take care
much luff
em
xxx
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Blowing Bubbles...
Yay.. it's Wednesday and Ben is home today... and to make it even better he'll be home at lunch time... I cant stop watching that damn clock!!!
I need to explain to people how hard it is to get out and about with twins sometimes... I have to pack double everything you would normally pack for one, then I have to make double the bottles and then get the two sometimes 3 bags I need out to the car then one by one take the babies out to the car while making sure I havent forgotten anything.... then theres the getting ready bit, up fed wiped over and all that.. its so friggin hard and if I have to be somewhere early then I also have to have Mj and Cj ready aswell and they are NOT morning people ( I have no idea who they got that from :P) so this am I did all that.... get in the car to go to find both my babies are blowing bubbles out their noses........ so all my efforts were wasted because Im not that mum that will take sick babies to creche or child care.... so I dropped Mj and CJ at school and turned around to come home...... there goes my work out for today and I need to do it!! Ive become a bit of a gym junkie, mostly because I can kick it with the super fit now and give ppl a run for their money..... also I need the stress release... and Ive seen a difference abit of determination can get you. Im really happy with how Im starting to look, especially after having twins. I cant wait to get back on the netball court...
I have had 3 really bad nights in a row, every 1- 2 hours Ive been up, Im a mess at the moment and really look like shit. I need sleep to function, I cant without sleep. Im useless, cranky and well best stay away from me coz Ill just take my lack of sleep out on you!! Im not sure what the issue is but on the first night callum and rori were both spewing and well that was fun!
At least ben is home to do it now.. im taking a much needed time out....
He hasnt had his 2nd int yet.... i swear BHP are useless... its not hard to organise a video conferance.. but for gemco it is! Ben has to wait another 2 wks now to do it because the person who needs to do it isnt available now for another 2wks! My dream of leaving here soon is fading away fast..... I still think he will get it but I think its going to take time.. the whole recruitment process. Still I have everything crossed.
Ive been thinking alot lately about how sincere some people are, i always seem to attract friends that really think bragging and having the best of everything is going to make them more appealing.... maybe to cash converters but not to me! I then ask myself am i jealous? or is it just annoying... i came to the conclusion its just annoying because I have got alot of awesome stuff, more than the people who brag so I dont really think i can be jealous. Im jealous though, of wifes who have their husbands home every night... that makes me jealous. Familys that are together at the dinner table everynight. Dads helping their kids with their homework every night... God i cant wait to have that back, esp when ben is better at helping mj with her maths than I am!!
Im not jealous of people who pretend to be something they are not because they dont have the strength or courage to change their own lives... i have afew friends like that.
Anyhow,,, twins.. today are having a good day... rori is learning to "dance" she just bounces up and down when music is on, i have been able to put a teeny tiny pony tail in her hair at the top, kind of point less but looks cute!! brodie is getting around pretty well now, i put him down come back later to find him somewhere else.. they seem to both like pulling the dvds out the dvd stand.....
Im really in a weird place today, ive had a really hard 3 days, probably the lowest. All mums have that moment but when is enough enough? I dont think I have one person that fully understands the life I have.. i dont really understand why I have this life. Why its frustrating to see people who if they choose can have a good life but they choose to make it harder.
I think Im just sleep deprived. Really rambling here... I know I need a good BIG sleep. Ive never looked worse.
So im going to leave you here after my incoherant rant and rave.... dont judge me.. im not right today.
much love
em
x
I need to explain to people how hard it is to get out and about with twins sometimes... I have to pack double everything you would normally pack for one, then I have to make double the bottles and then get the two sometimes 3 bags I need out to the car then one by one take the babies out to the car while making sure I havent forgotten anything.... then theres the getting ready bit, up fed wiped over and all that.. its so friggin hard and if I have to be somewhere early then I also have to have Mj and Cj ready aswell and they are NOT morning people ( I have no idea who they got that from :P) so this am I did all that.... get in the car to go to find both my babies are blowing bubbles out their noses........ so all my efforts were wasted because Im not that mum that will take sick babies to creche or child care.... so I dropped Mj and CJ at school and turned around to come home...... there goes my work out for today and I need to do it!! Ive become a bit of a gym junkie, mostly because I can kick it with the super fit now and give ppl a run for their money..... also I need the stress release... and Ive seen a difference abit of determination can get you. Im really happy with how Im starting to look, especially after having twins. I cant wait to get back on the netball court...
I have had 3 really bad nights in a row, every 1- 2 hours Ive been up, Im a mess at the moment and really look like shit. I need sleep to function, I cant without sleep. Im useless, cranky and well best stay away from me coz Ill just take my lack of sleep out on you!! Im not sure what the issue is but on the first night callum and rori were both spewing and well that was fun!
At least ben is home to do it now.. im taking a much needed time out....
He hasnt had his 2nd int yet.... i swear BHP are useless... its not hard to organise a video conferance.. but for gemco it is! Ben has to wait another 2 wks now to do it because the person who needs to do it isnt available now for another 2wks! My dream of leaving here soon is fading away fast..... I still think he will get it but I think its going to take time.. the whole recruitment process. Still I have everything crossed.
Ive been thinking alot lately about how sincere some people are, i always seem to attract friends that really think bragging and having the best of everything is going to make them more appealing.... maybe to cash converters but not to me! I then ask myself am i jealous? or is it just annoying... i came to the conclusion its just annoying because I have got alot of awesome stuff, more than the people who brag so I dont really think i can be jealous. Im jealous though, of wifes who have their husbands home every night... that makes me jealous. Familys that are together at the dinner table everynight. Dads helping their kids with their homework every night... God i cant wait to have that back, esp when ben is better at helping mj with her maths than I am!!
Im not jealous of people who pretend to be something they are not because they dont have the strength or courage to change their own lives... i have afew friends like that.
Anyhow,,, twins.. today are having a good day... rori is learning to "dance" she just bounces up and down when music is on, i have been able to put a teeny tiny pony tail in her hair at the top, kind of point less but looks cute!! brodie is getting around pretty well now, i put him down come back later to find him somewhere else.. they seem to both like pulling the dvds out the dvd stand.....
Im really in a weird place today, ive had a really hard 3 days, probably the lowest. All mums have that moment but when is enough enough? I dont think I have one person that fully understands the life I have.. i dont really understand why I have this life. Why its frustrating to see people who if they choose can have a good life but they choose to make it harder.
I think Im just sleep deprived. Really rambling here... I know I need a good BIG sleep. Ive never looked worse.
So im going to leave you here after my incoherant rant and rave.... dont judge me.. im not right today.
much love
em
x
Saturday, August 2, 2008
So..
So.. Brodies all but over his spider bites, still scabby but def moved on, how scary and awful was that! Im really strict now that clothes dont stay on the clothes line over night and i check their beds every morning...
Welp, its sunday and michaela and I have been having a harry potter marathon, i just love harry potter and its great to share the movies with her. She understands more now so we're having some great conversations about the movies now....
I had a friend Nicola come over today, it was great for some company, especially when we have soo much in common. We're planning a night out to a local pub I cant wait.
I was talking to a very good friend this morning about people and how things in life affect them, that life is what you make it.... how true is that simple little saying. I know some things are often out of our control but sometimes, majority the decisions you make, the life you live and the way you treat other people dictates how your life is, if you feel sorry for yourself will life get better? or do you just expect sympathy and someone else to fix it?? Does whinging and expecting others to do everything really going to make life better? i dont know, im just tired of hearing about how bad others peoples lives are when they are the only people that can change it.. and yes.... we are in the process of changing ours.... means another move but hey im up for anything that will mean i can be happy fulfilled and not depressed, moody and all that crap. who wants to live like that?
anyhow....... our garage sale went very well, the kids were bloody awesome like usual, i swear im the luckiest mum, i have the most helpful caring kids in the world. i have never met any other kids like mine. i hope we can do just a good a job with the twins... im still a little concerned about toilet training them hahaha
well i have to run, harry potter 4 is about to start., thanks for hearing my rant for today.. im not sure if it made any sense at all...
hope everyone had just as a relaxing weekend as me!
much love
emma
x
Welp, its sunday and michaela and I have been having a harry potter marathon, i just love harry potter and its great to share the movies with her. She understands more now so we're having some great conversations about the movies now....
I had a friend Nicola come over today, it was great for some company, especially when we have soo much in common. We're planning a night out to a local pub I cant wait.
I was talking to a very good friend this morning about people and how things in life affect them, that life is what you make it.... how true is that simple little saying. I know some things are often out of our control but sometimes, majority the decisions you make, the life you live and the way you treat other people dictates how your life is, if you feel sorry for yourself will life get better? or do you just expect sympathy and someone else to fix it?? Does whinging and expecting others to do everything really going to make life better? i dont know, im just tired of hearing about how bad others peoples lives are when they are the only people that can change it.. and yes.... we are in the process of changing ours.... means another move but hey im up for anything that will mean i can be happy fulfilled and not depressed, moody and all that crap. who wants to live like that?
anyhow....... our garage sale went very well, the kids were bloody awesome like usual, i swear im the luckiest mum, i have the most helpful caring kids in the world. i have never met any other kids like mine. i hope we can do just a good a job with the twins... im still a little concerned about toilet training them hahaha
well i have to run, harry potter 4 is about to start., thanks for hearing my rant for today.. im not sure if it made any sense at all...
hope everyone had just as a relaxing weekend as me!
much love
emma
x
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Yay,. its friday!
Yay! It's friday.. no strict routines no rushing and no stressing.... well not as much!! I love weekends and cant wait for holidays again so i dont have to do the school run in the morning, you know how much I hate that!! Well just lately Ive taken to going to the gym in the mornings so I drop them at school and then go straight to the gym, Im actually becoming a junkie.... im wanting to do more and more enhanced things instead of the boring ones im doing... im loving that im now starting to see definition in parts of my body.. that all that sweat, funny faces and thoughts of wanting to rip the gym apart are paying off.... although this am I was slightly pissed as one of my ear phones wasnt working... i need my ipod at the gym... i go into my own world and sing too.. i must look funny running on the xtrainer and singing along.. oh well. my gym time my alone time im going to utilise it and if they dont like my singing.. get a ipod!! hahaha
our garage sale is tomorrow morning... so much to do still.... starts at 8am and i have to move our old couch out into the drive way and set up a table of all the clothes and stuff.... go put out the signs... i swear i must love having a full plate..... the stuff we got in it is pretty awesome, mostly baby stuff, swing, cacoon, jolly jumper tonnes of clothes that are new with tags or near new.. when we first moved here it was to hot so all the winter clothes we had for them ( before we knew we were moving here) have never really been worn.. so see how we go. stuff id actually give to family or mates if i lived closer to them!!!!
soo... brodies face is looking alot better,... well i thought so til someone pointed it out yest and because it does still look kinda bad, maybe contagious i had to explain the whole story... he's happier today and ate some food today so on the mend....
babies are in child care again monday, im really looking forward to it, i got a assignment back today that i blitzed again... ..19/19..... perfect!!! so it gives me the mojo to keep going. esp when lately i just wonder if its worth all the stress... its only EN.... still though its alot better than what most people i know are doing... i dont think though that I want to go onto RN... im thinking of going to go into maternity. thats still 3 years at uni... but thats something im interested in, certainly life experienced at... haha
the twins are 9mnths now.. i think i may have said that already. but still im just glad its moving along nicely... if not abit of a blur. they are gorgeous and just ratbags, rori is going to be a handful i can just tell... she already steals brodies toys if he is holding them... a little theif she is!
my birthday soon..... im a little excited.. i dont really know why. im only going to be 28. i think because bens birthday is 3wks after mine and we are going to go do a barrier reef diving day trip... be freezing though im sure. be fun though.
welp i best get to it... its almost 5 and i better start looking in the panty for some food for the little people... im thinking mexican pasta.. better defrost that mince then hey....
much luff.. miss everyone sooo much today... id really love that get together with afew drinks and some music with kids running around... miss those really bad.
xxx
our garage sale is tomorrow morning... so much to do still.... starts at 8am and i have to move our old couch out into the drive way and set up a table of all the clothes and stuff.... go put out the signs... i swear i must love having a full plate..... the stuff we got in it is pretty awesome, mostly baby stuff, swing, cacoon, jolly jumper tonnes of clothes that are new with tags or near new.. when we first moved here it was to hot so all the winter clothes we had for them ( before we knew we were moving here) have never really been worn.. so see how we go. stuff id actually give to family or mates if i lived closer to them!!!!
soo... brodies face is looking alot better,... well i thought so til someone pointed it out yest and because it does still look kinda bad, maybe contagious i had to explain the whole story... he's happier today and ate some food today so on the mend....
babies are in child care again monday, im really looking forward to it, i got a assignment back today that i blitzed again... ..19/19..... perfect!!! so it gives me the mojo to keep going. esp when lately i just wonder if its worth all the stress... its only EN.... still though its alot better than what most people i know are doing... i dont think though that I want to go onto RN... im thinking of going to go into maternity. thats still 3 years at uni... but thats something im interested in, certainly life experienced at... haha
the twins are 9mnths now.. i think i may have said that already. but still im just glad its moving along nicely... if not abit of a blur. they are gorgeous and just ratbags, rori is going to be a handful i can just tell... she already steals brodies toys if he is holding them... a little theif she is!
my birthday soon..... im a little excited.. i dont really know why. im only going to be 28. i think because bens birthday is 3wks after mine and we are going to go do a barrier reef diving day trip... be freezing though im sure. be fun though.
welp i best get to it... its almost 5 and i better start looking in the panty for some food for the little people... im thinking mexican pasta.. better defrost that mince then hey....
much luff.. miss everyone sooo much today... id really love that get together with afew drinks and some music with kids running around... miss those really bad.
xxx
Monday, July 28, 2008
Time Flies....
Gosh, time flies when you havin fun... Ben goes back to work tomorrow morning and im just dreading it. back to just me having to do everything and to make it worse he has to work a extra day so he is gone a extra night and day and that means one less for his days of next time. I cant wait for us to get out of here. Hopefully not long now. Theres something in the pipeline and it's looking just a little promising... but dont want to get our hopes up, when we do it always comes crashing down. still.. the longer we are here the more i hate life, stay angry at ben and generally cranky and down....
So much has been going on, Rori has gotten over her "bug" and we had a pretty cruizy weekend, callum had a birthday party at the mini golf place here on saturday and that place was amazing, rides, dodgems, mini golf, ride on cars, jumping castles... so we might take the kids there one weekend we are bored!! we've been very good and been going to the gym regulary. im very proud that i can do 25 push ups straight up and on the reverse fly ( i lean on a machine and bend forward to touch my toes on a 45 degree angle) i can do 30 of them holding 7.2kgs of weights.. so im slowly getting some upper body strength.. its hard work though!!
Brods woke up yest with about 6 litte bites on his cheek.. looked just abit bigger than mozzie bites and they blistered up, he vomitted afew time and we just assumed something bit him and he had caught roris "bug" ..... this morning i got him out his cot with afew more bites and to find a little spider crawling of him... so my baby was bitten by a spider.. repeatadly.. so of to the drs again.....arggg... its never ending.. he seems pretty happy though now, just gets cranky easier but is over all happy, doesnt like his face touched which is fair enough when its got big bites on it, ill post a pic on facebook later on....
ive managed to get afair bit of study done, i just love getting into it and doing it but finding the time and energy at the same time is a challenge.
well today we are of to the target toy sale, we werent going to do it this year because we want to get the kids a quad and associated gear to go with it but they have a giant jumping castle thingy and we want to get the twins some stuff so we back there today... they are 9months now.. wooohooo and brodie is pretty much crawling.....whooo hoooooo....... in a army shuffle struggling way.. its great to watch...
welp my brekky is waiting and so is the day.. im trying to organise everything i can now for our garage sale on the weekend.... im sure its going to be loads of fun!! not! mj is looking forward to it, she wants to be the "shopper" girl.. to help people and stuff... she says that now...
k, i have to go.
take care
lotsa luff
em
xxx
So much has been going on, Rori has gotten over her "bug" and we had a pretty cruizy weekend, callum had a birthday party at the mini golf place here on saturday and that place was amazing, rides, dodgems, mini golf, ride on cars, jumping castles... so we might take the kids there one weekend we are bored!! we've been very good and been going to the gym regulary. im very proud that i can do 25 push ups straight up and on the reverse fly ( i lean on a machine and bend forward to touch my toes on a 45 degree angle) i can do 30 of them holding 7.2kgs of weights.. so im slowly getting some upper body strength.. its hard work though!!
Brods woke up yest with about 6 litte bites on his cheek.. looked just abit bigger than mozzie bites and they blistered up, he vomitted afew time and we just assumed something bit him and he had caught roris "bug" ..... this morning i got him out his cot with afew more bites and to find a little spider crawling of him... so my baby was bitten by a spider.. repeatadly.. so of to the drs again.....arggg... its never ending.. he seems pretty happy though now, just gets cranky easier but is over all happy, doesnt like his face touched which is fair enough when its got big bites on it, ill post a pic on facebook later on....
ive managed to get afair bit of study done, i just love getting into it and doing it but finding the time and energy at the same time is a challenge.
well today we are of to the target toy sale, we werent going to do it this year because we want to get the kids a quad and associated gear to go with it but they have a giant jumping castle thingy and we want to get the twins some stuff so we back there today... they are 9months now.. wooohooo and brodie is pretty much crawling.....whooo hoooooo....... in a army shuffle struggling way.. its great to watch...
welp my brekky is waiting and so is the day.. im trying to organise everything i can now for our garage sale on the weekend.... im sure its going to be loads of fun!! not! mj is looking forward to it, she wants to be the "shopper" girl.. to help people and stuff... she says that now...
k, i have to go.
take care
lotsa luff
em
xxx
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Heys.
Hello!
It's been afew days.. maybe that novelty is wearing off... that or bens home and he has me entertained.. i just love it when he is home. but time just goes to fast.
We've had a hard few days with the twins, they are both sick with different symtoms..brods has snot and stuff and rori is clingy, limpish, vomiting and sleeping a whole lot. im really watching her because babies can dehydrate so quickly so if she doesnt have a wet nappie soon its of to the drs again... with twins.. we are always at the drs. so we;ve been busy with them, tag team style although we are slightly out numbered with kids....
ben joined up at the gym yesterday, its great to have somebody to work out with.. it was nice to show of all the great things i can do now.. im getting super strong... and i bought a size 12 top so im bloody stoked.
i know this is short. i have brodie screaming at my feet and a game of spyro to defeat!! while the kids are at school...
have a great weekend
luff
emma
It's been afew days.. maybe that novelty is wearing off... that or bens home and he has me entertained.. i just love it when he is home. but time just goes to fast.
We've had a hard few days with the twins, they are both sick with different symtoms..brods has snot and stuff and rori is clingy, limpish, vomiting and sleeping a whole lot. im really watching her because babies can dehydrate so quickly so if she doesnt have a wet nappie soon its of to the drs again... with twins.. we are always at the drs. so we;ve been busy with them, tag team style although we are slightly out numbered with kids....
ben joined up at the gym yesterday, its great to have somebody to work out with.. it was nice to show of all the great things i can do now.. im getting super strong... and i bought a size 12 top so im bloody stoked.
i know this is short. i have brodie screaming at my feet and a game of spyro to defeat!! while the kids are at school...
have a great weekend
luff
emma
Monday, July 21, 2008
Ick.
Thought Id get me and the kids pizza for tea because its coldish ( i know... not as cold as SA..... but ive adjusted to the heat and there is no sun so its cold) and its been raining for days.. thanks for sending it up here... but i had one peice and i feel gross and oily it did taste unreal though, bbq meat lovers double topping by eagle boys.. yummo... i think the healthy lifestyle ben and i have been living for the last 5months ( and we've both dropped some serious weight..me 10kgs and ben over 25kgs!) having that take away stuff just really doesnt sit well.
Ben looks so different but so good. He's shrinking away and last week i was looking at his arms thinking where have they gone?? i think my bingo arms are bigger... speaking of bingo arms... ive been at the gym for months now, 3 or 4 to be almost exact and i still have bingo flappy arms.. its shitting me and i dont know how to get rid of them.. ive started to get a 6pack outline amidst my little post baby pouch... today really hurt at the gym actually but no prissys to entertain me.... im really proud of how i look 9months after having twins. Its been hard work and ive stunk alot but its been worth it.
Ive been trying to play spyro, callums alittle ahead of me and boy is he good at it. very frustrating have a loud 5yr old tell you what to do in a video game.. esp spyro.
So.. ive been doing alot of studying the last few days, the twins were in child care yesterday and it made it alot easier to concentrate. I wrote 3 essays and im stuck on my 4th.. and i still have 11 mini ones to go...... luckily my hair is falling out ( i suffer from some hormone thing after having babies that my hair falls out but it does grow back....) or id be pulling it out!!!
Speaking of health.. and I dont want to jinx myself I am FINALLY BACK IN REMISSION for my disease, its only been about 4months or so.... numerous trips to the dr lots of meds and days where i wanted to just die. Because I have a auto immune disease when i fall out of remission I catch anything and everything its so disheartening and painful and all that junk but hey look at me now!! think my only complaint is well nothing!!!! HAHA finally!! im all good and im just so happy... having a disease is complicated, consuming and depressive. Especially when people just dont understand or assume you are making it up, exagerating ( i know i spelt that wrong) or just simply dont care. I have to go have a lovely colonoscopy this year ( ive been avoiding it) but because i am now classified high risk bowel cancer i cant really escape it.. its such a lovely relaxing thing to have done............
ben is home tomorrow night for 6 days.. i just cant wait, we dont have alot planned which is great, we're going out to lunch monday with a couple up the road but thats about the extent of it.
i escaped the dentist this week but have to go next week, i still have to go back about 3times... i hate the dentist so much but i need to have work done so bad.. spewing for over half the preg really ruined my teeth both colour and density. sucks.
well. my lovelys.. im signing out to go play with my bubbas, callums making a magazine(!) mj is floating around, brodie is still trying to work out the crawling thing and rori is chasing anyone she can in her walker..... just a insight into my day....
take care
xxxx
Ben looks so different but so good. He's shrinking away and last week i was looking at his arms thinking where have they gone?? i think my bingo arms are bigger... speaking of bingo arms... ive been at the gym for months now, 3 or 4 to be almost exact and i still have bingo flappy arms.. its shitting me and i dont know how to get rid of them.. ive started to get a 6pack outline amidst my little post baby pouch... today really hurt at the gym actually but no prissys to entertain me.... im really proud of how i look 9months after having twins. Its been hard work and ive stunk alot but its been worth it.
Ive been trying to play spyro, callums alittle ahead of me and boy is he good at it. very frustrating have a loud 5yr old tell you what to do in a video game.. esp spyro.
So.. ive been doing alot of studying the last few days, the twins were in child care yesterday and it made it alot easier to concentrate. I wrote 3 essays and im stuck on my 4th.. and i still have 11 mini ones to go...... luckily my hair is falling out ( i suffer from some hormone thing after having babies that my hair falls out but it does grow back....) or id be pulling it out!!!
Speaking of health.. and I dont want to jinx myself I am FINALLY BACK IN REMISSION for my disease, its only been about 4months or so.... numerous trips to the dr lots of meds and days where i wanted to just die. Because I have a auto immune disease when i fall out of remission I catch anything and everything its so disheartening and painful and all that junk but hey look at me now!! think my only complaint is well nothing!!!! HAHA finally!! im all good and im just so happy... having a disease is complicated, consuming and depressive. Especially when people just dont understand or assume you are making it up, exagerating ( i know i spelt that wrong) or just simply dont care. I have to go have a lovely colonoscopy this year ( ive been avoiding it) but because i am now classified high risk bowel cancer i cant really escape it.. its such a lovely relaxing thing to have done............
ben is home tomorrow night for 6 days.. i just cant wait, we dont have alot planned which is great, we're going out to lunch monday with a couple up the road but thats about the extent of it.
i escaped the dentist this week but have to go next week, i still have to go back about 3times... i hate the dentist so much but i need to have work done so bad.. spewing for over half the preg really ruined my teeth both colour and density. sucks.
well. my lovelys.. im signing out to go play with my bubbas, callums making a magazine(!) mj is floating around, brodie is still trying to work out the crawling thing and rori is chasing anyone she can in her walker..... just a insight into my day....
take care
xxxx
What a great day!
What a nice day! Twins at child care from 8.30 til 4.30pm it was nice.. I got to go shopping on my own, had lunch on my own ( and im not afraid to eat by myself in a cafe or resturant its great) got heaps of study done, although the research side of it all is starting to piss me off I spend more time researching than actually doing the essay's. One is on the transitions and adjustments that are related to old age and Psychosocial needs of the older adult... interesting stuff hey.
Now though that all 4 are running about the house its loud and louder.... ive managed to bath 3/4 just rori to go, 2 are fed and 2 waiting.... rori hasnt slept much today i guess the excitement of being in child care kept her awake so she is a little testing at the moment and its just to early for her to go down..
NATIONAL PREMMIE DAY JULY 25th..... important to me as I had 2 very small and delicate babies.... my friend jackie m had her twin girls at 32wks and they didnt weigh over 800grams each, i think one was actually 500grams... thats about how much ham i buy a week...... im of to a morning tea at the ronald mcdonald house with afew other mums i know to support it and raise money for the units.. the nurses and drs who work with such fragile little things deserve so much praise..
2 sleeps and ben is home and i just cant wait. the week he is home go so much faster than when he is away. guess time flies when you are having fun.
Big brother finale, yeah i got sucked in, can you believe it... me... sucked into that crap... i hope nana terri wins. does that make me old that i want that??
so. in all ive had a pretty wicked day. tomorrow im back to the gym as is wed am and fri am, im thinking of going to a kickboxing session thurs but i dont know... i dont want to hurt anyone bahahahahaha
well i better bath spew bag rori... she has another teethie coming through on the bottom, its just about to break through.. god it must be so painful.
thanks for the positive feed back on my new obsession, im glad its helping / amusing / interesting...
take care
luff luff
em
Now though that all 4 are running about the house its loud and louder.... ive managed to bath 3/4 just rori to go, 2 are fed and 2 waiting.... rori hasnt slept much today i guess the excitement of being in child care kept her awake so she is a little testing at the moment and its just to early for her to go down..
NATIONAL PREMMIE DAY JULY 25th..... important to me as I had 2 very small and delicate babies.... my friend jackie m had her twin girls at 32wks and they didnt weigh over 800grams each, i think one was actually 500grams... thats about how much ham i buy a week...... im of to a morning tea at the ronald mcdonald house with afew other mums i know to support it and raise money for the units.. the nurses and drs who work with such fragile little things deserve so much praise..
2 sleeps and ben is home and i just cant wait. the week he is home go so much faster than when he is away. guess time flies when you are having fun.
Big brother finale, yeah i got sucked in, can you believe it... me... sucked into that crap... i hope nana terri wins. does that make me old that i want that??
so. in all ive had a pretty wicked day. tomorrow im back to the gym as is wed am and fri am, im thinking of going to a kickboxing session thurs but i dont know... i dont want to hurt anyone bahahahahaha
well i better bath spew bag rori... she has another teethie coming through on the bottom, its just about to break through.. god it must be so painful.
thanks for the positive feed back on my new obsession, im glad its helping / amusing / interesting...
take care
luff luff
em
Sunday, July 20, 2008
OKay..
Okay. I think im addicted because every time i have something to say or something happens this is where I want to put it.. I guess the novelty will wear off eventually... I hope...
I should be starting a essay, ive done the notes for it but just cant do it... its on two body systems that deteriorate with the natural aging process, ive chosen urinary system and musculoskeletal... did you know our bones start to deteriorate from about the age of 30.... so drink that milk...
Im thinking of going to lunch or brunch with rach tomorrow, waiting for her reply... dont have the twins and it would be nice to eat a meal without them.. although its great to give them food now and watch them attempt to eat it, or screw their faces up if they dont like it. I love my kids sooo much but its not all about them... Im EMma... 27... soon 28 and have lots of stuff to say and do.... thats how i feel sometimes that motherhood took away abit of me.. i love being a mum, its rewarding in so many different ways but i still want to be emma. You seen twins... twins... it sounds hard and i guess sometimes it is hard but if ben wasnt working away it would be alot easier. Its double everything.... if you have just one baby, double it for just a second, double the poop double the screams double the work double the MONEY>but also double the laughter and cuddles. We get stopped all the fuckin time in shops, get asked are they twins, are they boy girl when one is wearing pink one blue, ask if we had ivf or not ( i think thats a bit personal) we get stopped and told god loves us and knew we would cope... we also get the sympathy looks the fuck that looks and the looks of omg..... as if its not hard enough... when i have to go out i have to pack double the bottles double nappies 2 bags and then getting them in and out the car, when they were small i mastered getting them both out the car at the same time but now they are a whopping 8kgs i cant so one is always waiting,,,,, thats the bit i hate. one always has to wait. i am very particular though, if you show one affection or attention the other gets it too. doing twin feeds was hard, the last 8months have gone by in a blur. and I always wonder who out of all the friends i have ever wondered if i was coping...
we're having a garage sale in afew weeks, ive never done one before, we have so much crap esp in the garage so its time to clear it out, we;ve updated alot of our stuff and the old is still cloggin up the house... maybe thats my space issue.... with what we make im going to get pissed hahahahaha..... na we'll need it if we move on from here... we've been trying to sell my beloved VE now, i didnt want to but we dont need it and we want to upgrade to a pathfinder... no tarago for us...... yet!
well im spent.. im hot.. and i dont think ill do my essay tonight.
hope your all well and stuff.
nitey nite.
xxx
I should be starting a essay, ive done the notes for it but just cant do it... its on two body systems that deteriorate with the natural aging process, ive chosen urinary system and musculoskeletal... did you know our bones start to deteriorate from about the age of 30.... so drink that milk...
Im thinking of going to lunch or brunch with rach tomorrow, waiting for her reply... dont have the twins and it would be nice to eat a meal without them.. although its great to give them food now and watch them attempt to eat it, or screw their faces up if they dont like it. I love my kids sooo much but its not all about them... Im EMma... 27... soon 28 and have lots of stuff to say and do.... thats how i feel sometimes that motherhood took away abit of me.. i love being a mum, its rewarding in so many different ways but i still want to be emma. You seen twins... twins... it sounds hard and i guess sometimes it is hard but if ben wasnt working away it would be alot easier. Its double everything.... if you have just one baby, double it for just a second, double the poop double the screams double the work double the MONEY>but also double the laughter and cuddles. We get stopped all the fuckin time in shops, get asked are they twins, are they boy girl when one is wearing pink one blue, ask if we had ivf or not ( i think thats a bit personal) we get stopped and told god loves us and knew we would cope... we also get the sympathy looks the fuck that looks and the looks of omg..... as if its not hard enough... when i have to go out i have to pack double the bottles double nappies 2 bags and then getting them in and out the car, when they were small i mastered getting them both out the car at the same time but now they are a whopping 8kgs i cant so one is always waiting,,,,, thats the bit i hate. one always has to wait. i am very particular though, if you show one affection or attention the other gets it too. doing twin feeds was hard, the last 8months have gone by in a blur. and I always wonder who out of all the friends i have ever wondered if i was coping...
we're having a garage sale in afew weeks, ive never done one before, we have so much crap esp in the garage so its time to clear it out, we;ve updated alot of our stuff and the old is still cloggin up the house... maybe thats my space issue.... with what we make im going to get pissed hahahahaha..... na we'll need it if we move on from here... we've been trying to sell my beloved VE now, i didnt want to but we dont need it and we want to upgrade to a pathfinder... no tarago for us...... yet!
well im spent.. im hot.. and i dont think ill do my essay tonight.
hope your all well and stuff.
nitey nite.
xxx
Saturday, July 19, 2008
A fricken Bed...
God... how hard can a fricken bed be to put together, I woke up this morning and decieded that it was time for callum to move from his car bed ( that we bought him when he was 2 so he wouldnt fall out of it!) and into a big bed, what a prick that was to put together, 1hr and 15min later with red fingers and neighbours who probably put ear plugs in to avoid hearing my swearing... its together. His room looks great.. now I just have to buy matching furniture its still all odds n ends and hand me downs so in the next week or so some new bedside tables for them and eventually I want to get them those cupboards with a toy box on the bottom, they are awesome. Just costly.
Im on this huge storage thing, I have to create more room from the space I have because this house is too small or we are just outgrowing it... I have a feeling we are outgrowing it.... Ive bought some of those under bed containers for Mj and CJ so help clean up the crap they hardly play with but just had to have..once the twins start getting bigger and into toys and stuff we really need a playroom because their room is full with the two cots, change table, chest of draws and couch... doesnt leave alot of room...
Man having twins is fun, it does make me laugh though when people just assume we planned it that way... its not our fault and we have to pay double everything. Esp with clothes because well, they are boy girl so no sharing. Thanks to Rach Richards though who has given me clothes and has seen me through the last few months and even now still... thanks a gazillion babe.
My house is a mess. A big grotty mess and I just cant be stuffed cleaning it, I might do some tomorrow when the twins are in child care but really i think ill study and watch tv hahaha
Well, I bought the kids a new playstation game today.. spyro.. looks good so im going to try it first.
peace out.. hahahahaha
xxxxx
Im on this huge storage thing, I have to create more room from the space I have because this house is too small or we are just outgrowing it... I have a feeling we are outgrowing it.... Ive bought some of those under bed containers for Mj and CJ so help clean up the crap they hardly play with but just had to have..once the twins start getting bigger and into toys and stuff we really need a playroom because their room is full with the two cots, change table, chest of draws and couch... doesnt leave alot of room...
Man having twins is fun, it does make me laugh though when people just assume we planned it that way... its not our fault and we have to pay double everything. Esp with clothes because well, they are boy girl so no sharing. Thanks to Rach Richards though who has given me clothes and has seen me through the last few months and even now still... thanks a gazillion babe.
My house is a mess. A big grotty mess and I just cant be stuffed cleaning it, I might do some tomorrow when the twins are in child care but really i think ill study and watch tv hahaha
Well, I bought the kids a new playstation game today.. spyro.. looks good so im going to try it first.
peace out.. hahahahaha
xxxxx
I'm hooked...
Now I have started this blog thing, Im almost addicted. Addicted to putting my life on the web for everybody to read and judge... more for people to understand me... I think, well I know that for the best part of my life Ive been judged... sometimes Ive done something that may warrant it but mostly I do things because I believe in them, I don't do things, change me for other people, dont tell people what they want to hear... I never have. Why should I, just because they have insecurities about themselves doesnt mean I have to change for it.. it has though got me into alot of trouble over the years. If you ever heard of me or something Ive done, I can gurantee there was almost always a person I was sticking up for, protecting or whatever.. so I have learnt now, not to do those things, you cant treat a old dog new tricks.....
Anyhow, the reason for this blog, my second for today is.... Brodie started to crawl, its a strange awkward type of crawl, gets up on 4's rocks brings legs forwards then collapses then does like a breast stroke type of thing then moves in a army crawl way.. it is funny but he gets where he wants to go, now its just a matter of fine tuning and getting faster.. I cant wait for them to crawl. the fun the excitement and i wont be able to sit for long at all hahahaha.... and rori has another bottome tooth coming through, but she hasnt got any top.. is that normal? I thought bottome two come first then top two then the side ones...
well thats all i wanted to say, oh and my chicken soup i made.. kicked some fuckin ass... best yet!
Have a good one, im watching a movie callum picked out... TMNT... cowabunga dudes
xx
Anyhow, the reason for this blog, my second for today is.... Brodie started to crawl, its a strange awkward type of crawl, gets up on 4's rocks brings legs forwards then collapses then does like a breast stroke type of thing then moves in a army crawl way.. it is funny but he gets where he wants to go, now its just a matter of fine tuning and getting faster.. I cant wait for them to crawl. the fun the excitement and i wont be able to sit for long at all hahahaha.... and rori has another bottome tooth coming through, but she hasnt got any top.. is that normal? I thought bottome two come first then top two then the side ones...
well thats all i wanted to say, oh and my chicken soup i made.. kicked some fuckin ass... best yet!
Have a good one, im watching a movie callum picked out... TMNT... cowabunga dudes
xx
Friday, July 18, 2008
MMM Chicken Soup....
MMM, I love nothing more than home made chicken soup, takes all morning to make but is so worth it and its great because I use the chicken for a meal tonight. Last's all weekend and is just so yummy!
Saturday... we are of to a good start. Kids are all happy and easily pleased, we watched enchanted for the 5th time, I really don't mind it.. Happily Ever After hey, do we all really get that?
Im really getting over facebook. Its boring me and I only really ever read peoples status to see what they are up too and check out any pics that I might find interesting. I put pics up so ppl can see my beautiful children but thats about it. I wonder what the next big thing will be, there was ringo, bebo and facebook, myspace.
Im really looking forward to the next week, we are waiting for a really important phone call that could change our lives... and no unfortuantly it wont be the lotto commission. Ben is home Wednesday night and the kids have a concert they are doing at school Monday morning. And the twins are going into childcare all day Monday so I can get some serious study done. I have a workshop in Whyalla in late november and I have to have a certain amount of modules done before the workshop so I need to knuckle down. Im currently doing the cardiovascular system and a really big aged care module. Interesting though.
Im thinking of getting inked again in the very near future, the twins initials on the inside of my ankles, a eternal flame flask on bens name ( not cover up to add to it) and afew others, obviously not all at once... ouch. But I will be covered by the time Im 30, it isnt my goal to be that I just have some that Ive waited a year for so I know I really want them, Im not impulsive when it comes to tatts. Thats when you get the sad, bad and ick ones. Ones you regret. I dont regret one of the 5 I have and cant wait to add more. Also thinking of a beauty spot peircing or a dimple peircing... just for interest sakes... I can always take it out!!
Well, I best get to it... the chicken soup is ready and the rolls are buttered... yummo! Now we just have to pick the next movie to watch today... I love these days, they really do shit all over going out getting smashed and wasting away a day. Im really over that. Ive tried to get back into it but just dont see the point. Id rather drink at home and stay in my pjs haha
okay im going.. told yas i could talk...
xxx
Saturday... we are of to a good start. Kids are all happy and easily pleased, we watched enchanted for the 5th time, I really don't mind it.. Happily Ever After hey, do we all really get that?
Im really getting over facebook. Its boring me and I only really ever read peoples status to see what they are up too and check out any pics that I might find interesting. I put pics up so ppl can see my beautiful children but thats about it. I wonder what the next big thing will be, there was ringo, bebo and facebook, myspace.
Im really looking forward to the next week, we are waiting for a really important phone call that could change our lives... and no unfortuantly it wont be the lotto commission. Ben is home Wednesday night and the kids have a concert they are doing at school Monday morning. And the twins are going into childcare all day Monday so I can get some serious study done. I have a workshop in Whyalla in late november and I have to have a certain amount of modules done before the workshop so I need to knuckle down. Im currently doing the cardiovascular system and a really big aged care module. Interesting though.
Im thinking of getting inked again in the very near future, the twins initials on the inside of my ankles, a eternal flame flask on bens name ( not cover up to add to it) and afew others, obviously not all at once... ouch. But I will be covered by the time Im 30, it isnt my goal to be that I just have some that Ive waited a year for so I know I really want them, Im not impulsive when it comes to tatts. Thats when you get the sad, bad and ick ones. Ones you regret. I dont regret one of the 5 I have and cant wait to add more. Also thinking of a beauty spot peircing or a dimple peircing... just for interest sakes... I can always take it out!!
Well, I best get to it... the chicken soup is ready and the rolls are buttered... yummo! Now we just have to pick the next movie to watch today... I love these days, they really do shit all over going out getting smashed and wasting away a day. Im really over that. Ive tried to get back into it but just dont see the point. Id rather drink at home and stay in my pjs haha
okay im going.. told yas i could talk...
xxx
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Chin Up...
I was talking to my most awesome cousin Sarah last night, who told me to keep my chin up.. she is such a down to earth caring person, I really do luff her.. so when I was doing my chin ups today I was definetly thinking of her!!
I went to the gym still in a fowl mood but really found I pushed myself so much harder because of my sappy mood. I belted out 25 pushups before starting to shake... I remember when I could only do 4 then collapse. They are really hard and I really had no upper body strength at all. Now Im beginning to get some nice "guns" hahaha.
Theres alot of prissys that go to my gym. They even go in makeup. I figure because alot of army guys go there that they want to pick up. I think they forget its a gym. People go there to sweat and smell. Geeze I go with hairy legs... .... well noone is going to get up and close to me at the gym are they??? It does make me laugh though, watching them try to attempt the machinery.. equipment what ever they call the stuff you use to get muscles and stuff. They struggle and its funny. Im not a prissy and Im not into makeup so its great to see them fail at something...
Im determined today and tonight to have a good night. I just have to. It's getting to draining having bad ones all the time. Though I have to admit because it's friday night and Mj and Cj dont have school tomorrow they can stay up just a tad later so I don't have to be so routined and on the ball. It's okay to take it easy and eat when eat and bath when it comes around.
We dont have much planned for the weekend, bens working away so I lay pretty low, its a little hard to get out with all 4 and keep tabs on them, I can do it if I have to but I dont go out of my way. So we will make some home made chicken soup tomorrow and watch movies all weekend... sounds good to me!
I just worked out, I changed 6 pooey nappies today..... and thats not including the wet ones inbetween.. man. thats alot. I go through about 12 nappies a day, 8 bottles a day depending can be more. Starting to go through 3 cans of food a day. And then there is clothes shopping... argg these babies just keep growing!! Heres a bullshit fact for everyone, with the government we arent classified as a multiple family because we only had 2 babies at once, you have to have triplets to be classified as a multiple birth.. how fucked is that... we miss out on so many benefits.
anyhow, my beautiful older cherubs will be home any minute and I just cant wait to see them. Its always such a rush in the mornings.
Take Care
xxxxx
I went to the gym still in a fowl mood but really found I pushed myself so much harder because of my sappy mood. I belted out 25 pushups before starting to shake... I remember when I could only do 4 then collapse. They are really hard and I really had no upper body strength at all. Now Im beginning to get some nice "guns" hahaha.
Theres alot of prissys that go to my gym. They even go in makeup. I figure because alot of army guys go there that they want to pick up. I think they forget its a gym. People go there to sweat and smell. Geeze I go with hairy legs... .... well noone is going to get up and close to me at the gym are they??? It does make me laugh though, watching them try to attempt the machinery.. equipment what ever they call the stuff you use to get muscles and stuff. They struggle and its funny. Im not a prissy and Im not into makeup so its great to see them fail at something...
Im determined today and tonight to have a good night. I just have to. It's getting to draining having bad ones all the time. Though I have to admit because it's friday night and Mj and Cj dont have school tomorrow they can stay up just a tad later so I don't have to be so routined and on the ball. It's okay to take it easy and eat when eat and bath when it comes around.
We dont have much planned for the weekend, bens working away so I lay pretty low, its a little hard to get out with all 4 and keep tabs on them, I can do it if I have to but I dont go out of my way. So we will make some home made chicken soup tomorrow and watch movies all weekend... sounds good to me!
I just worked out, I changed 6 pooey nappies today..... and thats not including the wet ones inbetween.. man. thats alot. I go through about 12 nappies a day, 8 bottles a day depending can be more. Starting to go through 3 cans of food a day. And then there is clothes shopping... argg these babies just keep growing!! Heres a bullshit fact for everyone, with the government we arent classified as a multiple family because we only had 2 babies at once, you have to have triplets to be classified as a multiple birth.. how fucked is that... we miss out on so many benefits.
anyhow, my beautiful older cherubs will be home any minute and I just cant wait to see them. Its always such a rush in the mornings.
Take Care
xxxxx
Im not...
Geeze,
Everyday that Ben is away is just getting harder. The days seem to be getting easier but come 4.30pm when I have to start doing tea, baths and stories and homework, plus pee and feeds and poos... its exhausting, frustrating and probably the most alone I have ever felt in my whole life. There I said it.. so for everyone who thought I was super woman.. there you go. Im not. I struggle everyday Bens away and I think out of everyone I support only 3 really ask me how I am going and if Im ok. Pretty weak when I try my hardest to help other people. Better still I try to keep in contact with other people, see for me, Friends are for life not for the time being or til we move towns. For life. I make friends because I see I have something in common and I care about them otherwise why would I bother. This whole experience for me is showing me who my friends are and who are just plain old fake. Its becoming fairly obvious.
Im just in a shit mood and over this so bad. I shouldnt even be doing this because Im in a bad frame of mind.
Im pissed some kids are still throwing shit at my kids when they get of the school bus, so mummy is taking a trip to the bus stop tomorrow afternoon........
I have and will bring my kids up to respect themselves and everyone else around them and its so frustrating when other people dont because its my kids that cop it. I know not all kids are perfect and mine have their moments but they dont intentionally hurt people.
I keep living in the past, wish I could take the last year back and do it over. I have never had to go through anything so hard in my life before and sometimes hearing Im superwoman makes it worse because then I feel like a failure. I just do what I have too to get through the day.
Im trying so hard to finish my nursing. Its such a long slow battle. I dont think I will ever get there and Ill be disapointed if I don't. I just keep plodding along. I know eventually our life will turn out wicked good I just wish it wasnt so hard getting there.
I have everything crossed that by nov we are out of here. Somewhere together as a family.
Okay... Im over my tantrum. I better go get Rori who went to sleep at half 6 only to wake up now so I wont be getting a early night....... great.
xx
Everyday that Ben is away is just getting harder. The days seem to be getting easier but come 4.30pm when I have to start doing tea, baths and stories and homework, plus pee and feeds and poos... its exhausting, frustrating and probably the most alone I have ever felt in my whole life. There I said it.. so for everyone who thought I was super woman.. there you go. Im not. I struggle everyday Bens away and I think out of everyone I support only 3 really ask me how I am going and if Im ok. Pretty weak when I try my hardest to help other people. Better still I try to keep in contact with other people, see for me, Friends are for life not for the time being or til we move towns. For life. I make friends because I see I have something in common and I care about them otherwise why would I bother. This whole experience for me is showing me who my friends are and who are just plain old fake. Its becoming fairly obvious.
Im just in a shit mood and over this so bad. I shouldnt even be doing this because Im in a bad frame of mind.
Im pissed some kids are still throwing shit at my kids when they get of the school bus, so mummy is taking a trip to the bus stop tomorrow afternoon........
I have and will bring my kids up to respect themselves and everyone else around them and its so frustrating when other people dont because its my kids that cop it. I know not all kids are perfect and mine have their moments but they dont intentionally hurt people.
I keep living in the past, wish I could take the last year back and do it over. I have never had to go through anything so hard in my life before and sometimes hearing Im superwoman makes it worse because then I feel like a failure. I just do what I have too to get through the day.
Im trying so hard to finish my nursing. Its such a long slow battle. I dont think I will ever get there and Ill be disapointed if I don't. I just keep plodding along. I know eventually our life will turn out wicked good I just wish it wasnt so hard getting there.
I have everything crossed that by nov we are out of here. Somewhere together as a family.
Okay... Im over my tantrum. I better go get Rori who went to sleep at half 6 only to wake up now so I wont be getting a early night....... great.
xx
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
My First....
Wow.
My first ever online blog that isnt related to a social network. I figure so many of my friends have online blogs that I enjoy reading all the time that I might do one aswell. Life is going so fast and so little time and blogs are just the perfect way to keep people in the know about what your up too and whats going on. Especially when my hands are constantly full and time is limited.
So.. life for us is okay. Not great but okay. Who wouldnt change a aspect of your life??? Nobodys life is perfect and its just foolish to project that to the world. Your only kidding yourself.
I wish that I could change the last year. Take it all back. Not the twins but everything else. Im looking forward to moving on from Townsville. Im happy but could be happier. I miss my friends so frickin much it hurts and I miss family. It killed me when Bens parents left and then when Kells left. I knew we were missing out on so much. That they are missing out on so much. It would be nice to fast forward 6 years.. we'll be in Stansbury running a deli and I reckon life will be pretty sweet. I'd be a Nurse by then, twins will be at school. All good.
It's quiet at the moment, a rarity, both Brodie and Rori are taking there afternoon sleeps and I know I should be too... It's hard to sleep through the day. Especially when I have washing, dishes, cleaning, studying or gym to do in the mean time, oh and theres facebook and blogs to read. So much and not enough time.
At 3.30 mj and cj will walk through the door and I just love hearing about their day. I love listening to Callum sing his new songs and love hearing about what Mj has learnt today... shit i forgot to send a reciepe to school with her this morning.. Im in trouble tonight......
They are a outstanding help when Ben works away. If we didnt have the twins it wouldnt be so bad having ben work away but with two babies it is double everything... mostly its okay but its more tiring.
Mj is now 8, it hurt a little that some people forgot especially when I make such a effort to remember other peoples kids birthdays. Really honestly Im sick of wasting the limited time I have on people who just cant return it. I know people are busy and stuff but geeze.
I dont know who will find this interesting, I guess for me its a release. I get to off load whats goin on in my life and stuff. As time goes on I guess it will get better. I can talk for ages, about anything, my gift to you!!
So I guess I'll leave it here for the first blog. I didnt really need to introduce myself as well those reading will already know me and my life so far.
Take Care
Emma n co!
XXXXXX
My first ever online blog that isnt related to a social network. I figure so many of my friends have online blogs that I enjoy reading all the time that I might do one aswell. Life is going so fast and so little time and blogs are just the perfect way to keep people in the know about what your up too and whats going on. Especially when my hands are constantly full and time is limited.
So.. life for us is okay. Not great but okay. Who wouldnt change a aspect of your life??? Nobodys life is perfect and its just foolish to project that to the world. Your only kidding yourself.
I wish that I could change the last year. Take it all back. Not the twins but everything else. Im looking forward to moving on from Townsville. Im happy but could be happier. I miss my friends so frickin much it hurts and I miss family. It killed me when Bens parents left and then when Kells left. I knew we were missing out on so much. That they are missing out on so much. It would be nice to fast forward 6 years.. we'll be in Stansbury running a deli and I reckon life will be pretty sweet. I'd be a Nurse by then, twins will be at school. All good.
It's quiet at the moment, a rarity, both Brodie and Rori are taking there afternoon sleeps and I know I should be too... It's hard to sleep through the day. Especially when I have washing, dishes, cleaning, studying or gym to do in the mean time, oh and theres facebook and blogs to read. So much and not enough time.
At 3.30 mj and cj will walk through the door and I just love hearing about their day. I love listening to Callum sing his new songs and love hearing about what Mj has learnt today... shit i forgot to send a reciepe to school with her this morning.. Im in trouble tonight......
They are a outstanding help when Ben works away. If we didnt have the twins it wouldnt be so bad having ben work away but with two babies it is double everything... mostly its okay but its more tiring.
Mj is now 8, it hurt a little that some people forgot especially when I make such a effort to remember other peoples kids birthdays. Really honestly Im sick of wasting the limited time I have on people who just cant return it. I know people are busy and stuff but geeze.
I dont know who will find this interesting, I guess for me its a release. I get to off load whats goin on in my life and stuff. As time goes on I guess it will get better. I can talk for ages, about anything, my gift to you!!
So I guess I'll leave it here for the first blog. I didnt really need to introduce myself as well those reading will already know me and my life so far.
Take Care
Emma n co!
XXXXXX
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